| Location | Dewsbury |
| Age | 0 |
| Cause of Death | Miscarriage |
| Date of Birth | 30/11/2006 |
| Date of Death | 30/11/2006 |
| Visitors | 322 since 06/09/2008 |
| Creator |
"Little one you left so quick,
I didn't even get to say goodbye.
Why did you leave little one?
Why did you have to go?
You hurt me and your daddy so,
Knowing we'd never hear your giggles
Or watch you learn to crawl.
Our arms ache to hold you close
And love you so.
We think about you everyday little one
And we will never forget you.
I hope the angels are taking care of you
And that your happy in heaven little one.
We will see you one day
And it will be a joyous occasion.
But until then I shall say goodbye
And never forget that we love you
Our precious baby,
Our gorgeous angel,
Our little one. "
Dear Erin,
I miss you baby. I wish I had felt you there inside my stomach but for reason unknown to us it was never meant to be. I found out I was pregnant the end of October and was scared but delighted. Me and Daddy were waiting for our first scan beginning of December to see you but it never happened.
I had gone on holiday to Spain with Nana and had a fabulous time. I cam back and on the 8th of November your daddy proposed to me and I thought everything was falling into place.
The week ending November 2006 was a horrible week. On Sunday the 26th at about 11pm at night I had cramps and went to the bathroom and I found blood in my knickers and when I wiped. It was brown so I thought nothing of it. Went back to bed, put my feet up and slept. Monday morning I went to the bathroom again and there was blood too , but this time it was redder and fresher so I rang my midwife and EPAU who told me to come in for a scan early morning.
Daddy had to work so I took nana and I had a scan. The lady told me there was no sign of a baby and that we had lost you. Oh how my heart broke and I cried (as did nanna) I had to have blood work to check my hormone levels to see if they were going down as that would suggest a miscarriage. I had the bloods taken and went back to nana's and just cried.
I got a phone call that afternoon saying my hormone levels were high and that I may be having an ectopic pregnancy and they we're getting me a room in Dewsbury Hospital to have a laraprescopy to check my fallopian tubes.
The surgeon was busy so I had the operation late Monday night/Early Tuesday morning and after I had recovered, the surgeon came and showed me that my tubes were pink and healthy and there was no sign of you (you would have been so good at hide and seek!) and that I could go home but needed to go in on Wednesday for more bloods to check if my hormone levels were falling.
Went in Wednesday morning the 28th of November and had bloods done. They called me that afternoon and said they had fallen and that it was definite we had lost you. Nana and Daddy just held me while I cried.
Thursday the 29th is a day I'll never forget. I was at Nana's after dinner when I had horrendous cramps and needed the loo. When I was there I started gushing out blood and losing clots and called out to Nana who phoned an ambulance. I was rushed to Dewsbury Hospital where due to stupid staff and miscommunication , I was left to bleed out and started to go into labour on my own - I was almost 11 weeks pregnant.I was left til after midnight and on the 30th of November 2006, I had lost so much blood that I went into shock and flat lined - needing to be resuscitated - After I had passed a massive clot which the docs reckon was you. I needed a lot of drips to re- hydrate me and my Iron level plummeted and Mummy was very poorly and so sad.
I spent a further 2 days in hospital recovering, though even now, 3 years on , it still hurts and my heart breaks all over again.
I miss you Erin, so so much and I cannot wait to hold you in my arms again and you can meet you little sisters Elithien and Dakota. Please watch over them baby. Mummy and Daddy love you.....
Precious Child by Karen Taylor Good
In my dreams, you are alive and well
Precious child, precious child
In my mind, I see you clear as a bell
Precious child, precious child
In my soul, there is a hole
That can never be filled
But in my heart, there is hope
'Cause you are with me still
In my heart, you live on
Always there never gone
Precious child, you left too soon
Tho' it may be true that we're apart
You will live forever... in my heart
In my plans, I was the first to leave
Precious child, precious child
But in this world, I was left here to grieve
Precious child, my precious child
In my soul, there is a hole
That can never be filled
But in my heart there is hope
And you are with me still
In my heart you live on
Always there, never gone
Precious child, you left too soon,
Tho' it may be true that we're apart
You will live forever... in my heart
God knows I want to hold you,
See you, touch you
And maybe there's a heaven
And someday I will again
Please know you are not forgotten until then
In my heart you live on
Always there never gone
Precious child, you left too soon
Tho' it may be true that we're apart
You will live forever... in my heart
A Birthday In Heaven by Kris Smith
I heard you crying yesterday,
And felt your heart-sent love.
So I’m sending you this message
Now, from Heaven up above.
You’re wondering if I’ll celebrate
My Birthday (way up here).
I know you’re missing me today
I feel your essence near.
God planned a special day for me,
He told me with a wink.
He’d ordered me a special cake
(It’s Angel food, I think).
Balloons will fill the streets for me,
They float up through the clouds.
And we have lots of friends up here
That make us laugh out loud.
There is a Birthday carousel,
Jewelled horses ride the wind,
With music playing, oh so sweet…
The magic never ends.
I’ve made so many friends, you see
We laugh and play and sing.
We ride our bikes and play the fool
And sleep in Angel’s wings.
But we don’t blow out our candles here
Instead, they light the skies.
With love from your little Angel xxx
Little Sister - by Christie Wildman
For your other Children XX
You have this little Sister,
She loves you very much,
But you’ll never get to see her,
Or feel her gentle touch.
She had to go away you see,
Through God’s garden gates.
Though she longs to meet you,
Heaven’s where she waits.
You have this little Sister,
She’s sending you her love,
Although she longs to be with you,
She watches from above.
She grew her Angel wings you see,
Though none of us were ready,
On one of heavens clouds she sleeps,
Cuddling her teddy.
You have this little Sister,
She’d love to come and play.
But for all eternity,
In the sky is where she’ll stay.
God had a plan you see,
He needs her by his side,
He’s shown her how to use her wings,
Through heavens clouds she glides.
You have this little Sister,
And though you are apart,
The love that you feel for her,
Will remain ever in your heart.
To The Child I'll Never Know - by Gloria Dianne
How can I say Good Bye
When I never said Hello,
Why does my heart grieve
For the child I'll never know?
You were a part of me
For just a little while.
I grieve because I'll never see
The magic in your smile.
I grieve for all the unsaid words
That you will never say.
I grieve that I will never see
You happily at play.
I grieve for all the lullabies
That will remain unsung.
I grieve because I'll never see
Your face gleaming like the sun.
I grieve because you will never know
The comfort of my touch.
I grieve because you will never know
That you were loved so much.
I grieve for all the tomorrows
That will never be.
I grieve because God chose
To take you back from me.
You live among the Angels now
Your earthly mission done,
You will be so dearly missed
Good-Bye my little one. XX
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